goodbye 2009: i don’t think i’ll miss you. much.

Dear 2009,

I’m not sad to see you go. You have been a very difficult year for me, and I’m certain I won’t miss you much. You brought me a total of 6 funerals between January and August. You also brought me a diagnosis of major digestive issues I have struggled to control, despite being a healthy eater. You brought me yet another year of living in house that is half under construction. I’m tired of sleeping in the living room and sewing at my dining room table.

At moments, I have counted the days until you would be over. I’m not much of a New Year’s person, but this year I’ve decided to celebrate your end. But I really don’t want to leave you on a negative note and with a disappointed heart, because in many ways, you have also brought me many truly amazing things:

~My best friend moved into the house next door to us and we have a “hidden” door in the fence to walk between our yards.

~My beautiful niece Juliet Grace was born and has successfully made it through her first surgery for a cleft lip/pallet. I can’t get enough of her. I miss her every day she’s not near me.

~I rounded the corner and am in the second half of my Ph.D. program. There’s a light at the end of the tunnel, even if it feels far off. At least I can see it!

~My digestive issues have completely changed my relationship to food, as well as my relationship to my body, in very profound and positive ways.

~My friends continue to amaze me–the old ones and the new ones–and have seen me at my very worst this year. Thanks for sticking with me.

~I got to share another year of my life with C. We’ve been married 5 1/2 years and I still think he’s the dreamiest man ever.

~I turned 30.

~We get to move upstairs soon (for real!) and my sewing machines are rejoicing with me.

Clearly, the goods have outweighed the bads. I can’t wait for 2010. There will be lots of rejoicing and kisses at midnight tonight!



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  1. Lois Chaffee
    Posted December 31, 2009 at 4:36 pm | Permalink

    Hi Rachel, I love you

  2. Jeremiah
    Posted December 31, 2009 at 4:44 pm | Permalink

    Juliet is sitting on my lap right now. She likes the picture!

  3. Posted January 4, 2010 at 7:04 pm | Permalink

    Oh my gosh! That is one beautiful baby!

    I pretty much could have done without October through December.
    And a few weeks over the summer.

    Maybe this year we should figure out how to pick and choose what makes a year.

    And you have my total sympathies about the house!
    44 days in bathroom remodel mode and I’m wondering if home project induced psychosis is a real thing.

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